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| there's just a couple things I'd like to note
of course, this is always optional for a vote....
you amaze me
you astound me
you annoy me
and can't afford me
here I sit wasting my time
when you don't even realize you've committed a crime
all of my energy is spent loving who you are and hating what you do
you committed the crime, now DO the time
this optional vote has been revoked
you're booted, I'm scorned,
hell hath no fury, this meeting is adjourned.
it's all about this dance, you'll see
this dance we dance so delicately
I'm staring at you, you're staring at me
'round and 'round the staring goes
my head is spinning but no one can know
he can't see me watching
can't see me waiting
she can't see me hoping
can't see me praying
when did honesty become overrated?
wouldn't the easiest thing, on the easiest day,
be the easiest way, to say, yes?
A lot of stuff has happened. I've just come to the conclusion, (after someone constantly telling me) that I really have changed. I'm not the same Sara. I read these old posts and I remember feeling these feelings and doing these things...it's strange. Closure is a strange word. Is it possible? Can you ever really let go of who you once were? Close that chapter and start anew? Should you discard the memories and forget that unreal happiness? Is that necessary?
How far should you go to forget someone. To let them go completely. Should you ever? Can you ever really give up wondering what they're doing, feeling, thinking, saying? I write this post and realize I sound like such a different person! I hope it comes again. I hope I feel it again. I hope it's as innocent and special and unforgettable and amazing when it comes again. Love is like....a kite. Flying and flapping in the wind. Sometimes, you get a really windy day and there's this one kite that stands out so brightly and you can reach out and grasp it. But kites can get heavy and weigh on you. If that kite doesn't want to be yours anymore you'll just have to wait for another windy day. They're few and far between but I think it'll come. You'll never forget how that first kite felt in your hand or how beautiful it was or how it flowed so easily through the wind, but with time that kite will blend in again. I think/hope? And if it doesn't, and that kite never ceases to shine brighter than the rest, you're just...stuck. Don't try to fix a kite, though. You'll spend your whole life trying to fix up a kite, and that's a bad idea. If that kite gets too heavy you just have to let it go. If you try to mold it, it'll just get heavier and you'll be unhappy. You want it to fly freely, that's important.
I'm rambling...I know. It's alright, though. Literally, No one reads this. I don't even think anyone knows it still exists. Anyone I used to talk to on here probably doesn't even remember me. When I was younger I always heard older people saying "I wish I could turn back the hands of time." I never understood that when I was younger. I just wanted to get old in a hurry and start life and responsibility and important stuff. I would roam the earth 100 times over to get the past back. To tweak it just a little. To say one thing differently, to be a little less naggy, to be a little more supportive, to be a little less selfish. Oh what I would do with a clock that could turn back time. I would take it back to almost exactly 5 years ago.
Whoops, I think I just caught myself rambling...again? Yes.
Well...
Do what you want but I know who you are
Say what you want but I know what you're thinking
Go where you want but I won't be too far
Go where you want and I know where you'll end up
If you fall in love...
Fall in love and hold nothing back
I'll fall in love...
Fall in love and hold nothing back from you.
We won't be saved, we'll live as slaves to love.
I mean it. Please learn from mistakes whether they're yours or someone else's. You're so smart, don't waste it. | | |
| You know...I miss this website. I miss the time I used to have to write a blog on this website. Sad story, huh?
<3
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| - Can't Take It
I PASSED MY ROAD TEST AND I MET THE PARENTS OF THE LEAD SINGER
(PATRICK) FROM FALL OUT BOY!!!! His parents came into mcdonalds and i
was working front cash and their song came on and I was singing it and
the woman was like "Is this Fall Out Boy?" and i'm like
"Whoa, howd you know?" and shes like "Ha, well i'm the lead singer,
patricks, mom:)" and im like "SHUT UP!" lol! and she showed me pictures
and a tour schedule and everything lol. Apparently they are from
Chicago and they are up here on vacation, which, I have no idea why
considering the damn temperature...lol. They are visiting the Dow
Museum and all that cool stuff. But she asked my name and told me the
next time they are in Michigan they will stop over at my Mcdonald's and
they'll say my name on stage when they come to Michigan! lol, HOW
FRIGGIN AWESOME IS THAT! oh yeah...lol. It was just a really neat
experience, all day has been really....strangely awesome lol well...IM
GONNA GO! TOODA LOO!!!!
<3Sara
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AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I TAKE MY ROAD TEST TOMORROW AT 8:45 IN THE MORNING
AND IM SCARED TO DEATH! I really hope God will be gracious and let me
slide...i'm not a bad driver I don't think...it's that
parking....parallel....it hurts to say it! But some things have gone
well today, I got my cd player in my car, yay! Padre payed for it (140
yeeks!) AND WESTERN BEAT MIDLAND! 14-3! yay! that means we're going to
the playoffs and that ALSO MEANS....REALLY COLD WEATHER. lol. Gotta
love the Michigan October nights lol. Things have gone well this week I
got an A in American History and an A in government! I'm really proud
of myself. Like not braggy proud but really happy that I did it all on
my own, you know? I've been trying hard this year. Except in
Spanish...I know I know...but it just seems so...ehh sometimes...i'm
missing some assignments and I should really get those in but AHH! So
and the other day...um...thursday I was supposed to work 4-8 well that
got changed to 4-9:30 and oh my goodness was it fun. We were so
freakily busy it was hilarious! we're running around dancing singing
and going crazy it was just a lot of fun! I think I might stay there
just because I really do like working with those people. I'm sure that
will change as things go on, everyone says it does. But...the only
reason I would leave right now is to get more money and I know thats
greedy but I do have stuff I need to pay for and take care of. Well
enough about me ranting lol you guys have lovely evenings and please
pray for me on my road test! God Bless!!
<3Sara!
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